2020 was a hard year for us all.

I won’t be presumptuous and claim that my 2020 was any harder than yours. But I will say that turning 21 the day the quarantine was enacted (March 13th) wasn’t exactly a highlight. I was stir-crazy by the beginning of April. Las Vegas, my hometown, was still massively shut down, and I hadn’t left the house in weeks.

I’d already painted as many Bob Ross YouTube tutorials as I could bear, and I’d even gone as far as to pretend to be a pigeon on Tindr (I was banned within the day). I was getting desperate for some form of human connection outside my family.

The Great Prank War of 2020

I decided that starting a prank war between my friends was the perfect way for all of us to stay connected during lockdown. And what better way to prank someone than to leave a bag of muffins on their porch anonymously? They get a fun snack and have to figure out who did it!

So, I went to Smiths, grabbed a container of chocolate chip muffins, and drove across town to my target. I wrote an inside joke in Sharpie on the top, dropped them on the porch, and called it a day.

A couple of days went by with complete silence. I began to worry that coyotes had snatched the muffins or perhaps someone had stolen them. What if they didn’t even see them, and they sat rotting on their front porch?

Then, I got a message from our group chat.

“Hey, did anyone drop muffins off on our front porch?”

I grinned. There was no way I was going to confess so easily. I could picture them sitting around their kitchen table, enjoying the chocolate chip muffins and scratching their heads as they pondered which friend had dropped them off. Then my phone pinged a second time, and my mouth dropped.

“My dad thinks someone is trying to poison us, so we threw them away.”

Thus, I was out $12.59, and the great prank war of 2020 ended before it began.

For a long time, I didn’t understand the hesitation. Why on earth would someone try to poison someone else by anonymously leaving muffins on their front porch? This was nearly four years ago now, but still the situation would occasionally pop into my mind.

Then, I moved to Cambridge, OH. I’ve been completely and totally surrounded by a group of people who seem to pour out the love of God effortlessly. From the time a group of friends pitched in together to buy me the new Zelda game to sitting and listening to my story. At first, I was confused. Why would these people love me so deeply? I had a season where I pulled back from the blessing of their friendship. I was suspicious. When would they realize who it was they were loving and begin to disparage me? When would they start ignoring me? When would they realize it was me they were loving?

God’s Character

It was only this past week that I realized why I was suspicious of the blessings (the friendship around me) that God was pouring out on me.

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? 11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!

Matthew 7:7-11

It all bottles down to this. When I receive spiritual healing or a blessing of someone’s friendship from seemingly nowhere, do I truly know God’s character? Do I trust that he is a good father?

I can’t really blame my friends for treating the muffins suspiciously. How many times have I suspiciously looked at a blessing, questioning if it really is a blessing? How often have I questioned healing, just waiting for the pain or sickness to come back? How many times have I questioned why a friend has decided to love me?

Controversial opinion here: God loves you—and not just in a ‘because He has to’ sort of way. But He actually genuinely and deeply loves you.

Do you believe He wants to bless you?


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